June 14, 2022
I was born on a Friday, after lunch. When you’re supposed to rest. Not being in labor. 😂
My Personality Earth hit me with Gate 64, the Gate of Confusion, precisely with the first Line, which is called Conditions.
As a result, I’ve been grounded on this plane
trying to find the point ❓❓❓
in the image pool of my brain.
My purpose gets defined by the Cross of Consciousness. So, my life is basically all about becoming aware.
After making it to my late twenties, I got my wake up call through severe back pain, which led to my first psychotherapy. Since then,
Self reflection has been my constant companion. 🙄
Meaning, that I went through many different kinds of therapies, always trying to make sense out of the strange feeling, that something had happened in my past.
But I couldn’t figure it out.
My childhood was one big black hole.
You can read more about my most interesting experiences around therapy in my Post about my Line Experience 47.3 – Self-Oppression.
Yes, the Channel of Abstraction 64-47 is a definition in my Design.
Deeper into my Human Design experiment today, I realize, how important all these different therapies have been. Because with every new attempt, I got a step closer to the AHAs,
that everyone with a 64-47 definition is looking for.
After decades, here’s what I found:
AHA No. 1:
Memories are distorted. 😫
Some of my memories were so horrible, so unspeakable, that I couldn’t get my head around them. Only to find out, over time, that a lot of them were not, what I thought they were.
Because memories get stored in fragments. Which is why it’s almost impossible to find out, what really happened. And the recall happens very individually through random pictures, sounds, smells or emotions.
AHA No. 2:
The key of a memory are the emotions. 😭😨😡
Regression therapy is mainly holding space, giving the suppressed emotions room to come back to the surface. Since we weren’t able to process our emotions as children, they come knocking at our door later in life. To be taken care of.
As adults, we’re finally able to give our child self, what it needs. 👶
The greatest healing could be achieved by taking little Anne into my arms, listen to her needs and make sure they were met. Finally.
It was the most difficult and the most rewarding thing I ever did. ❗❗❗
All pain comes through external bonding. And the healing can be done through internal bonding.
That’s one of the big jokes of the Program of Consciousness, that orchestrates us all.
As hard as it is to acknowledge, when you have been burned:
No woman is an island. Not even on the inside.
AHA No. 3:
We’re all here to condition each other. 👪👭👩👧
For better or worse.
There’s no way around it.
It’s a fact, that we grow through friction. ⚡
And it’s a shame, too, that we aren’t better equipped to meet the emotions that come with it.
Wouldn’t it be nice to learn all about, how to take care of our emotions early in life? Especially for emotional beings.
But I don’t think, that we’re ever going to get there.
Luckily, there still are tools to help us, when we grow up and are guided to find them.
And, also luckily, we don’t need the other to find resolve, because
The solution is waiting inside. 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟
Once found, we don’t need to act upon it. That’s a crucial point with Line 64.1.
In my experience, it’s better to keep the memories and images to yourself or within a very close circle, until you reach completion.
When the memory is resolved and laid to rest, you can tell the story, when recognized and invited. To stimulate and inspire others.
After all, that’s what the Sensing Circuit is all about:
The sharing of experiences. 🎁
As an outer authority for others. And maybe one day, I’m going to share the details of this particular journey with you.
At this point, I’m just grateful, that I got the chance to integrate my emotions and release the energy, that was needed for suppression.
I’m grateful, that I’m living in harmony with my family, enjoying their presence and appreciating their support.
And I’m grateful, that have true friends for sharing, empowering and having fun together.
You know, who you are.
And I love you. 💗💗💗
If you have the 64.1, you have the chance to get out of the confusion by diving deep.
Over time, and
when it’s correct.