July 26, 2022
Wow! I’ve posted twenty four Line Experiences in a year.
What a journey! 🎉 🥳💃
And this is going to be the last one, the 25th one, I’m going to share with you, because my Line 43.6 is defined by two planets.
Line 18.1 is activated by the Design Moon, in my defined Spleen.
I’ve always wondered, why I had to marry my two ex-husbands. 🤔
Who were both wildly incompatible with me.
Learning about this Line, I’ve got my answer:
The imperative of conservatism is the fact, that
There’s always going to be husband and wife. 💍
Since Line 18.1 is constantly assessing, what the parents did get right – and my parents have been married for over fifty years – it’s quite obvious, that I had to marry as well.
Besides, marriage has always been the bedrock of human societies.
And it always will be.
Even LGBTQ people are fighting for the right to enter into this construct. Which is kind of weird, when you think about it…
Because, from my experience,
marriage changes everything. 💥
And not for the better…
As soon as our wedding night was over, an ancient set of conditioning patterns took over.
I basically became the little housewife. 😮
And I observed with horror, how my wildly romantic lover with the devil-may-care attitude turned into a middle-class home owner. He cut his hair and started wearing polo-shirts. His whole set of values changed over night.
And we both gained so much weight!!!
It was spooky.
On top of that, we got
instant complacency. 🙄
The new sense of security made us let our hair down and pretty much stop caring about how that affected the other.
The bargain was sealed. 📜
No more seduction necessary.
And there’s another fact, that got confirmed by studying HD:
When a marriage doesn’t produce children, it’s more likely to break apart after seven years, because that’s the cycle.
Both of my marriages lasted five years.
Before they turned sour.
Because there was
no glue to hold us together in our incompatibility. 💔
Which made so much sense to me, after checking our Designs.
My first husband was a royal Manifesting Generator, who was busy chasing money. My second an extreme Generator, who wanted to feel good. Both weren’t a match to an organized Manifestor, who is fixed on HD and becoming aware.
Their definitions were centered around Sacral and Root, while mine were in the Ajna and Throat.
It’s obvious, that we were bound to fail, right from the start.
As far as children were concerned, I’ve always known, deep inside, that
I didn’t want children. 👶
And I’m grateful, that it wasn’t on the cards. 🙏🙏🙏
Knowing my Design, as a Manifestor, it would’ve been too much for me. Same as a pet or even a house plant.
I find it challenging enough to take good care of myself.
Living with an incompatible partner was a painful experience. A tragic NOT-Self experience. Making myself small to fit into the expected role was actually
detrimental for my health. 😑
And I blame it on the 18.1, which makes me
adhere to traditions. 🧶
I’ve always valued my family and my ancestors. And I was attracted to men, who did the same. Who were conservative themselves. Even, when it wasn’t obvious at first glance.
To value the past also means, that the adaptation of patterns has to be a gradual process. To not upset former judgements, that have been established.
Remember, correction is only of value, when it helps us to
live together happily. 😊
Looking for love with my Open G, I’ve been a slow learner, where relationships are concerned.
I had to repeat a few cycles to learn the lesson.
From my experience, it’s true, what Ra said:
Bonding is a joke. 🤣🤣🤣
We only have a chance, when our Design and the Fates are in favor.
Otherwise, it’s getting messy.
After years of living out the Not-Self, I’m in the process of
honoring my Design. 👑👑👑
And sharing it with you was so much fun!!! 😄
I’m not sure, what I’m going to write about next. To stay informed, follow me on Instragram @thequeenofdetailhumandesign.
Thank you so much 🙏🙏🙏
for reading my blog posts.
I appreciate you. 💗💗💗